With Tom, John, and Pablo, finishing the retreat comments.
The time has come," the Walrus said, "to talk of many things: of shoes and ships and sealing wax, of cabbages and kings.
Lewis Carroll, "The Walrus and the Carpenter," from Through the Looking-Glass. Christianity is a thinking man's game.
But the complete life is the life of a child. A child plays without keeping score of his circumstances. He imagines, he runs, he has fun, and he never once stops to check whether he is having fun. Are we having fun yet?
When I become fully conscious of my awareness of Christ, something is off. It is the sick man who knows what health is. The healthy man never thinks about it. A child of God is not aware of the will of God because he is the will of God: playing, imagining, unworried, in the zone.
“My grace is sufficient for thee.”
Notice the tense. Not was. Not will be. Is. Present, ongoing, already true.
The moment we drift even slightly, we start asking, "Lord, what is your will?" A child of God never prays to be made aware that God answers prayer. He is too restfully certain of it to ask, whether the answer arrives as the good, the bad, or the ugly. God governs our circumstances for His glory and our growth into the character of His Son.
If we try to overcome self-awareness by our own commonsense methods, we only strengthen it. Jesus says:
“Come unto Me… and I will give you rest”
Christ-awareness, abiding in Him, takes the place of self-awareness. Wherever Jesus comes, He establishes rest: the rest of completion, an activity so at home in Him that it never has to check on itself.
In the zone. At rest. Playing and working in Him and through Him.
Relax and enjoy His presence. Peace.